It has been a productive week living as a bachelor. I have been able to do a lot of things, like studying more Spanish for example, spending more time with the students and teachers and sleeping. I stayed pretty busy the first few days which kept my mind mostly off of not having my girls here with me, but now, however, things have slowed down a bit and I have more time to think. And when I usually go home and get hugs or play with the girls, nobody is home to welcome me. Plus it's just weird when the house is always so empty and quiet (though the quietness is nice in the middle of the night).
The cliche is true though, you don't realize what you have until it's gone (even when it's not gone for very long). And before Sarah left for the US, I have to admit, part of me was excited to be by my lonesome for a short while, basically so I could have a little more time to myself to get some things done. And I have, but it almost feels like it's all for not, sort of. I mean I know I'm doing a lot of good things for me, for the students here and for the university long-term. But when I walk to the house and nobody is there for a hug and kiss or nobody is getting into trouble or nobody is crying, there is a small void.
I think it has been very good for us to realize the importance of each other while we've been separated. For example, I had to sweep the house and organize the books that have been out since Sarah left. And I miss the girls yelling and playing. I miss Olivia's craziness and her wacky questions, and Sicily copying Olivia and me, and Sarah's gentle nurturing of the kids and me. But most of all it's the companionship. The sharing of my life with the others.
I know we will have to catch up when I arrive home, but for now I miss you guys lots. I love you! See you soon!